Sunday, December 30, 2007
I don't know if 2007 did me any good nor the other way around. It was the year that saw me forcefully letting go of the four years that has grown to be my comfort zones and the period of which screamfests with parents became normal.
Graduation was of course, an inevitable thing. I was numb the entire time, letting each moment pass. Today I received a Christmas card from my alma mater and it made me remember those days. Today isn't exactly more terrible than my college days. Today is just much harder. And I feel more vulnerable and restricted.
This year also saw how my parents and I just didn't jive well even in the tiniest things. One event after another led to us falling apart to the point that doing overtime at work seemed like a better option than eating dinner together with them.
Country-hopping was my ultimate escape. It made me savor freedom like I've never experienced it before. For the first time in my friggin' life, I could do whatever I wanted: go home whenever, eat whatever, do whichever...it was absolute bliss! And no one was there to stop me. I loved it. I guess I loved it even more especially with the fact that home in Manila wasn't exactly the place where I want to be right now. Honestly speaking, I really do want to get away from here. Now that I've gotten small dosages of living in other countries, far away from what is the now, I not only want bigger dosages, I want a permanent smack. And it's a smack I'll hopefully be able to achieve in a few years time. Patience for now lalalalala...
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